Required Reading

The following books should be required reading in all schools all around the world:

*Better Never to Have Been: The Harm of Coming into Existence (David Benatar)
*Conspiracy Against the Human Race: A Contrivance of Horror (Thomas Ligotti)
*The Trouble with Being Born (Emil Cioran)
*Confessions of an Antinatalist (Jim Crawford)

This is a short list, but I believe if, after reading all of these books, you’re still a pronatalist and/or a Pollyanna, you’re a fucking idiot. That’s all there is to it.

Random Thoughts…

There is no such thing as joy. There’s no such thing as love. There’s no such thing as happiness, pleasure, heaven, whatever. None of that crap actually exists.

What does actually exist is reality and all the unpleasantness of it. The only things that truly exist are pain, suffering, illness, and misery. To say otherwise is to be completely and totally delusional, yet we’re somehow genetically programmed to continue the cycle of badness and suffering, and what the fuck for?

There is no good in life. There are only differing degrees of bad, so why would you subject new individuals to the badness that is life? To make you feel less bad about your life (by somehow filling a so-called “need”)? What a fucking joke.


I just want to make a quick clarification to the previous post, in case some misconstrue my words.

Please don’t assume that I’m saying there’s insufficient evidence to absolutely prove that it’s better never to exist. As far as I’m concerned the Benatarian Asymmetry effectively dismantles any and all arguments in favor of pronatalism and there is an abundance of other evidence that clearly demonstrates non-existence is preferable to existence.  That said, even if such a thing didn’t exist (or, as is the case, that many people don’t find it convincing), it’s still up to the pronatalist to prove beyond a shadow of a doubt that existence is better than non-existence. If this were a statistics problem, the statement “better never to have been” is the null hypothesis, and the null hypothesis is always assumed true until proven false. Hence it’s up to the life-affirming individual to demonstrate why existence is a benefit over non-existence, and not the other way around.

Think of it this way: in the whole theism/atheism debate, it is up to the theist to prove the existence of god, rather than the atheist to prove the non-existence of god. “No god” is obviously the null hypothesis. Yes, there’s an abundance of evidence that outright suggests the non-existence of god, but even if there wasn’t, it’s still up to the theist to absolutely prove god exists.

I hope that clears things up.

The Burden of Proof

Interesting discussion with my sister.

It’s no secret I’m morally opposed to the creation of new life. Everyone who knows me and even most who don’t know me but have read my letters to the editor and such know that. The way I see it it’s better to never exist at all than to exist and have any part of that existence, however small, be unpleasant (for the record: I also disagree with Tennyson, I believe it’s better never to have loved at all).

That’s when it occurred to me, however, that the burden of proof doesn’t lie with me or any of the other antinatalist philosophers or lay people. The burden of proof lies upon the pronatalist camp. It’s not up to us to definitively prove that non-existence is better than existence, but rather it is their task to definitively prove that it is better to exist and therefore justify the imposition of life upon another new living being (life is an imposition since we were given no choice in the matter).

Alas, that is a burden of proof that is impossible to meet. Simply being Pollyanna-ish and saying “well I’m glad to be alive” doesn’t cut it. That’s not definitive proof. That’s emotional appeal. There are just as many (if not more) people out there who don’t particularly enjoy being alive, and further even if you do enjoy being alive that’s no guarantee your offspring will.

It seems to me the safest course of action is not to impose life upon any new beings. Non-existence can’t possibly be bad. At worst non-existence has a completely neutral value. On the other hand, existence can’t be definitely proven to have any sort of positive value.

Can Someone Please Explain To Me…

.,.why rapists in Belgium apparently have more rights than law-abiding citizens?

So a brutal rapists who by all means deserves prolonged suffering for his transgressions gets to be euthanized, but someone like me who’s done nothing wrong and is tired of existing can’t be? ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME, BELGIUM????

Oh well, I say give him what he wants anyway. Life is shit and I believe it’s the right of all individuals, regardless of what kind of life they’ve lived, to die a peaceful and painless death. It’s not this man’s euthanasia I oppose, but rather the fat that they won’t grant the same thing to law-abiding citizens.

Pregnant Sibling Rant

So I come back here to vent some frustrations even though I said I wouldn’t be posting here anymore. As it is, Dignitas outright denied me (fuck those sorry bureaucratic pieces of shit) so I guess I might have a few more posts left in me, though I’m not entirely sure this one won’t push me over the edge to try to find some pretty sure-fire ways to take matters into my own hands so to speak. 

I had a feeling this day would come eventually, but it’s finally come and it is UGLY. Here’s a re-broadcast of a little post I just posted to the best Facebook group in the history of Facebook groups:

Oh god. Here we go.

I just found out my chain-smoking (both pot and cigs), binge drinking and highly pro-life Pollyanna pronatalist baby rabid younger sister is fucking pregnant. She and her thug boyfriend are due next winter/spring and they insist on keeping it. It’s bad enough they’re bringing a new individual into existence but worse that she foesnt have the willpower to lay off her substances for even a day. Case in point that is going to be one fucked up kid and I’m supposed to be supportive and civil about it?

Oh the agony…

Seriously. My sister is about the most fucking irresponsible person I know. She abuses substances; her stupid, abusive, black thug boyfriend fucking sucks and she’s too blind to see it all while being a delusional Pollyanna life-affirming idiot. 

I feel absolutely sick to my stomach. I’m so horrified that she not only insists on committing the supreme act of evil (procreation) but also insists on drinking and smoking cigarettes and pot while pregnant because lord knows she isn’t mentally strong enough to lay off of it for even a day. 

I am beyond angry right now. The only solace I take is that I won’t be imposing the unfortunate state of existence on anyone myself. I’m angry and I feel so sorry for the individual who is not only going to be brought into existence against its will, but in all likelihood who is going to be completely fucked up mentally and physically because of her substance abuse problem. 

Fuck her and her sorry piece of shit boyfriend…

A Comment to the CF LiveJournal Group

I tried to post a comment “in my own defense” on the LJ page because of the venom that they spewed toward me on there, but the comments are restricted so I’ll post that comment here: 

I tracked this back in my “stats” and I just felt the need to come here and post a common sort of an “in my own defense” kind of thing.

For those that have wondered, I have a number of both mental and physical ailments that make life intolerable at best. I’m autistic and have antisocial personality disorder, one or the other would be enough to incapacitate me from being able to maintain a job long-term but the both of them together make it to where I couldn’t hold down a job to save my life. On top of all of that, I have chronic cluster headaches, Graves’ disease, wolff-parkinson-white syndrome, among other things.

I have no doubt I qualify under “unbearable and uncontrollable pain” due to chronic cluster headaches alone but this combined with everything else I think easily makes the case for “life-long incapacitating disability” as required by Dignitas to qualify for their services (as mentioned, one does not need to be terminally ill to qualify). I have made this decision after exhausting all other known options.

I don’t pass judgment upon those who wish to continue living once in existence, so all I ask is that you don’t pass judgment on my decision to end my life. Thank you.

It’s Been A LONG Time

Yes, I know it’s been quite awhile since I’ve posted here. I went out, had my fun, even tried my hand at a romantic relationship and a new career.

Case in point, my life hasn’t gotten a itty bit better.

With that in mind, I’ve requested Dignitas in Switzerland to assist me in committing suicide. I see no reason to continue with life at this point. As euthanasia is legal in Switzerland, even for people who aren’t Swiss citizens, I feel a 100% guaranteed effective mode of suicide is the best possible solution to my seemingly insoluble problems.

With that, this will be my final post to this blog. I’d like to thank all of you for reading these past two years. I won’t be deleting this blog as it’s provided entertainment for a number of people who have even stumbled across it in my absence. I intend to leave it here so it can continue to be enjoyed long after my death. Even if for entertainment purposes, if I can make others’ lives a little less miserable it’s worth it.

Again, thank you; and if there is an afterlife I look forward to meeting many of you there. :-)

EDIT: Here’s a documentary I found interesting. It’s like an inside look at Dignitas. They actually show an assisted suicide toward the end in real-time. Very interesting. To think that will be me in several months is, well, slightly unnerving but a huge relief nonetheless. I know for a fact I will feel a deep sense of relief after I drink the cocktail.

Fuck Fathers Day!

Seriously, why do we set aside a day specifically to recognize male breeders? It makes absolutely no sense to recognize something that’s just a result of biology.

There is nothing special about fatherhood. There is nothing miraculous or amazing or divine about it. There’s nothing spectacular about sticking one’s penis into a woman’s vagina and making it vomit into the birth canal and thus starting the cycle of reproduction. It’s all basic biology! We don’t celebrate mitosis, the production of ATP, or any other biological process with its special holiday, why the hell this? Makes absolutely no sense.

If anything, fathers are to be demonized as much as their female counterparts, for without their sperm we would not exist, and since it’s better never to be brought into existence, it follows that fathers, like mothers, have all committed the supreme act of evil. And for that reason alone, it follows that fathers should be scorned, not glorified.

So to my biological father, and to all fathers wherever you are, FUCK YOU!!!!!!!

Link: Arguments In Favor Of The Pro-Abortion Position

Being pro-abortion (as opposed to pro-choice) myself, a commenter linked me to an excellent defense of the pro-abortion/pro-death position. A very engaging and convincing read, and well worth your time so I’m reblogging it here.

Go here and you will find a whole host of entries making very strong arguments in favor of the pro-abortion position and trashing both the anti-abortion view and the so-called “pro-choice” view. To me, it’s cut and dry: if one is an antinatalist, the logical equivalent must be that one is pro-abortion. To quote the original poster: “Life is an imposition, not a gift.”

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